Well, this is my entree to "Blogg Land". I am a newbie so be gentle... I have a gun and I can find you.

So, what to say.. there isn't much I need to say really. I only found this site because my son CJ is on it and invited me to read. I am glad he did because it's one of the very few ways you can find out what is in your childs' head. My son is a great bonus in my life, I feel priveleged to be his father. I am sure he doesn't always feel the same about me but that is loife. I remember when I was his age and felt all the loneliness and insecurity that brought. I remember when I felt like the world was going too fast for me and that I couldn't keep up or make any kind of a difference. The world is a huge machine that rolls on and on with out any head of us mere humans, we can't change the way people think or the way people use resources or the way they abuse each other... but we can change the way we deal with others and slowly that will change the world. Every ant in

the nest lifts and carries what it can and eventually the tree is gone. 

I have lived a long time and been through a lot, that makes me glad because there isn't much that can surprise me now, although my reactions to things sometimes do. Take for example last night. Now I don't go out much these days because I can't really afford to, but last night an old flame asked me to a party.. I went and had a really great time and was quite surprised because I hadn't really expected to. I had expected that I would have a fairly ordinary night and not meet anyone very interesting but spend some time with a great friend and share a few laughs. In the event though, I ended up meeting a couple of really nice people ( one in particular), sharing some good humour and catching up with a mate I hadn't seen for several years. Why did I think I wouldn't want to go? Why did I try to avoid this one night of fun and games? Was I just trying to avoid life? Hmmm, I think so. Not like my old self at all, I used to go to anything that was on, open a bottle of whisky and I would be there to welcome it.

Anyway, I am glad I found this site (thanks Chris) and will poist more soon.